Michael's Page

Michael's Page http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/ Hello, thank you for stopping by my new blog and page. This site is a record of every day in the life of me... all my thoughts, feelings, ideas, and everything is posted here, along with other little goodies like my nature pictures and videos. Also can be used as an insight to somebody who has bipolar disorder, and how I deal with it on a daily basis. A little about me: My name is Michael (or you can call me Mike or Mikey) and I'm a 23 year old male from the Branson area of Missouri. I enjoy computers, nature, photography, music, and being myself. I also like animals, and I'm a computer gawd. I guess if there's anything else needing to be known, just ask. =) Enjoy! P.S. Please take a look at my nature pictures posted in the Photos section below. My absolute favorite is The Storm At Sunset which I took on September 22th, 2006 as a storm was moving away while the sun was going down (it's also the current background on this site). Fri, 4 Jul 2008 06:13:26 -0000 Thu, 3 Jul 2008 22:03:00 -0000 Michael's Page http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/logo http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com 100 100 Seasons <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SG1ORgoKCDoAAERh@LI1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SG1ORgoKCDoAAERh@LI1/before_the_storm_by_med3s.jpg?et=mGU6JgP4rxB%2BMcFexTJO3A&nmid=0" border="0"></a> I'm in a melancholy mood, since the Spring and Summer are passing by so quickly... soon, it'll be Autumn again... another year will pass... But, I've been making the most out of this year... I've been outside every evening, watching the sunset turn to dusk, dusk turn to night... watching the fireflies and the frogs near the pond... it makes me feel whole, yet empty. It tells me and shows me what's missing from my life. Tomorrow is Independence Day. I kinda wish I had some big fireworks, so I could use my camera. I'd absolutely love to take pictures of it... and I'll be sure to post a picture tomorrow with some fireworks (not a picture of mine, of course)... There's a severe thunderstorm nearby right now. I can hear the thunder from it... it makes me feel alive. I can find peace with myself one day, I hope... if I can, I can live my life alone if I need to, and even stop torturing myself. Here's to the seasons, and for whatever may come... Summer nights and long warm days Are stolen as the o... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/508/Seasons Thu, 3 Jul 2008 22:03:00 -0000 Time After Time <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SGnBgAoKCDoAAGbBoeg1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SGnBgAoKCDoAAGbBoeg1/Last_Summer_by_oorakoora.jpg?et=WaRpnQEgrhHuD4BzX3ODqA&nmid=0" border="0"></a> Time for something mushy, for a change... Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick, And think of you Caught up in circles confusion Is nothing new Flashback warm nights Almost left behind Suitcases of memories, Time after Sometimes you picture me I'm walking too far ahead You're calling to me, I can't hear What you've said Then you say go slow I fall behind The second hand unwinds If you're lost you can look and you will find me Time after time If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting Time after time If you're lost you can look and you will find me Time after time If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting Time after time After my picture fades and darkness has Turned to gray Watching through windows you're wondering If I'm OK Secrets stolen from deep inside The drum beats out of time If you're lost you can look and you will find me Time after time If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting Time after time You said go slow I fall behind The second hand unwinds If you're lost you can look and you will find... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/507/Time_After_Time Tue, 1 Jul 2008 05:31:00 -0000 Psychosocial <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SGZuBQoKCDoAACZEwnU1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SGZuBQoKCDoAACZEwnU1/Harvest_Moon_by_goldleaf09.jpg?et=2GlB7VDKx6yYvYU0J4xOBQ&nmid=0" border="0"></a> New Slipknot song... it kicks ass. =) I did my time, and I want out I saw my future...fade It doesn't cut, The soul is not so vibrant The reckoning, the sickening Back at you, the virgin, Pseudo-sick but sick perversion Go drill your gases, Go dig your grave Then fill your mouth With all the money you will save Sinking in, getting smaller again I'm done, it has begun I'm not the only one And the reign will kill us all, Throw ourselves against the wall But no one else can see, The preservation of the martyr in me Psychosocial, psychosocial, psychosocial Psychosocial, psychosocial, psychosocial Oh, there are cracks, in the road we lay But will they ever fill? The secrets have gone mad! This is nothing new, But would we kill it all? Fate was all we had The reason of the mess, We could start over Just look me in the eyes And say I'm wrong Now there's only emptiness, But a message to bring I think we're done I'm not the only one! And the reign will kill us all, Throw ourselves against the wall But no one else can see, The pr... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/506/Psychosocial Sat, 28 Jun 2008 16:58:00 -0000 Summer Breeze <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SGTsSAoKCDoAAGsQOSs1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SGTsSAoKCDoAAGsQOSs1/Summer_Swing_by_mirounga.jpg?et=NDOk5tiPx6wZ57NdvmUnDA&nmid=0" border="0"></a> My happy Summer song... See the curtains hanging in the window In the evening on a Friday night A little light a-shining through the window Lets me know every thing's all right Summer breeze, makes me feel fine Blowing through the jasmine in my mind Summer breeze, makes me feel fine Blowing through the jasmine in my mind See the paper laying on the sidewalk A little music from the house next door So I walk on up to the door step Through the screen and across the floor Summer breeze, makes me feel fine Blowing through the jasmine in my mind Summer breeze, makes me feel fine Blowing through the jasmine in my mind Sweet days of summer, the jasmine's in bloom July is dressed up and playing her tune When I come home from a hard day's work And you're waiting there, not a care in the world See the smile a waiting in the kitchen Food cooking and the plates for two Feel the arms that reach out to hold me In the evening when the day is through Summer breeze, makes me feel fine Blowing through the jasmine in my mind Summer... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/505/Summer_Breeze Fri, 27 Jun 2008 13:29:00 -0000 Believe In Me <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SGHJzAoKCDoAADyG3o41"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SGHJzAoKCDoAADyG3o41/07-8-12-5961.jpg?et=WnwHExDfJOS2MZHc4HTj5g&nmid=0" border="0"></a> Sad and dark mood tonight... why is it people around me are happy, and have people they can count on, and even love... when I honestly have nobody? I'm sick and fucking tired of seeing happy people parading around with their meaningless bullshit that does not mean a fucking thing. I wish, and hope, and had faith that one day it'd change... and it hasn't, and it's apparent now it won't. Let's face it, I'm alone. I've been alone for most of my life more or less, waiting and hoping... I give up. I just give up now, I can't take it anymore. It's not worth it. It's not making me happy sitting right here waiting. ... I was wrong. I'm wrong about the things I need most in life. Why am I wrong? Because they don't exist... What really exists? Surely I do, right? No. I don't think I exist, other than a physical shell with a consciousness. This is a Lenny Kravitz song asking the person he's talking to to not give up and to believe in him... well, it's bullshit. Belief in another does not make a sin... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/504/Believe_In_Me Wed, 25 Jun 2008 04:16:00 -0000 Believe <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SGEVbwoKCDoAABY7HNU1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SGEVbwoKCDoAABY7HNU1/Fireflies_by_Panacea57.jpg?et=8UxsGj%2CwucGMZfEn%2BhwBOQ&nmid=0" border="0"></a> The new song by the legendary modern rock band, Staind. Me, well, I've been better. Still slightly sick, but nearly fully emotionless now... I sit alone and watch the clock Trying to collect my thoughts All I think about is you And so I cry myself to sleep And hope the devil I don't meet In the dreams that I live through Believe in me I know you've waited for so long Believe in me Sometimes the weak become the strong Believe in me This life's not always what it seems Believe in me Cause I was made for chasing dreams All the smiles we've had to fake And all the shit you've had to take Just to see us here again I never have the things to say To make it all just go away To make it all just disappear Believe in me I know you've waited for so long Believe in me Sometimes the weak become the strong Believe in me This life's not always what it seems Believe in me Cause I was made for chasing dreams It's my life It's my choice Hear my words Hear my voice And just believe I sit alone and watch the clock Trying to collect my thou... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/503/Believe Tue, 24 Jun 2008 15:39:00 -0000 If You Only Knew <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SF3ZQwoKCDoAADXgK0U1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/2/photos/upload/300x300/SF3ZQwoKCDoAADXgK0U1/Apocalypse_by_Demoneangelo.jpg?et=TxCy3xPNJ3LNQqrBrTqWFw&nmid=0" border="0"></a> Another dark song... If you only knew I'm hanging by a thread The web I spin for you If you only knew I'd sacrifice my beating Heart before I lose you I still hold onto the letters You returned I swear I've lived and learned It's 4:03 and I can't sleep Without you next to me I Toss and turn like the sea If I drown tonight, bring me Back to life Breathe your breath in me The only thing that I still believe in is you, If you only knew... If you only knew How many times I counted All the words that weren't wrong If you only knew How I refuse to let you go, Even when you're gone I don't regret any days I Spent, nights we shared, Or letters that I sent It's 4:03 and I can't sleep Without you next to me I Toss and turn like the sea If I drown tonight, bring me Back to life Breathe your breath in me The only thing that I still believe in is you, If you only knew... If you only knew I still hold onto the letters You returned You help me live and learn It's 4:03 and I can't sleep Without you next to me I Toss and turn like the sea If I... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/502/If_You_Only_Knew Sun, 22 Jun 2008 04:40:00 -0000 Breaking Inside <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SF3WTwoKCDoAAHWNNmk1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SF3WTwoKCDoAAHWNNmk1/Autumn_by_amandalia47.jpg?et=a9FnTf3r2O5fAr5yiU41bw&nmid=0" border="0"></a> Dark song... I caught a chill And it's still frozen on my skin I think about why I'm alone, by myself No one else to explain How far do I go No one knows If the end is so much better why don't we just live forever Don't tell me I'm the last one in line Don't tell me I'm too late this time I don't want to live To waste another day Underneath the shadow of mistakes I made 'Cause I feel like I'm breaking inside I don't want to fall and say I lost it all 'Cause baby there's a part of me to hit the wall Leaving pieces of me behind And I feel like I'm breaking inside Out here, nothings clear Except the moment I decided to move on and I ignited Disappear into the fear You know there ain't no comin' back When you're still carrying the past You can't erase, separate Cigarette in my hand, Hope you all understand I won't be the last one in line I finally figured out what's mine I don't want to live To waste another day Underneath the shadow of mistakes I made 'Cause I feel like I'm breaking inside I don't want to fall and say I ... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/501/Breaking_Inside Sun, 22 Jun 2008 04:33:00 -0000 Thank You <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SFhAjgoKCDoAAAt-bO01"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SFhAjgoKCDoAAAt-bO01/Summer_Love_by_lowapproach.jpg?et=jKmtoDhxAraV7ekMR2XKGA&nmid=0" border="0"></a> This is a Led Zeppelin acoustic cover, with some of the lyrics edited and changed and added... Me, I'm sick right now. I'm taking a dangerous medication, which makes me quite sick... but I really have no choice... And that's ok... I'll be singing this song to myself, since it's beautiful and it makes me sad... If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you. When mountains crumble to the sea, there will still be you and me. Kind woman, I give you my all Kind woman, nothing more... Little drops of rain, whispers of the pain, Tears of loves lost in the days gone by. My love is strong, with you there is no wrong, Together we shall go until we die. Inspiration, is what you are to me Inspiration, look and see... And so today, my world it smiles, Your hand in mine, we walk the miles, And thanks to you this will be done, For you to me are the only one. Happiness, no more be sad Happiness, I'm am glad... Little drops of rain, whispers of the pain, Tears of loves lost in the days gone by. Our love is stro... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/500/Thank_You Tue, 17 Jun 2008 22:49:00 -0000 Fall Away <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SFRLeAoKCDoAAChwfnk1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SFRLeAoKCDoAAChwfnk1/Storm_Approaches_by_wca.jpg?et=AebP5%2CTpoOueHUje6Mj%2Bkw&nmid=0" border="0"></a> Would be one of those songs to play on a piano or keyboard in the early evening... skipping the choruses of course... You swear you recall nothing at all That could make you come back down You made up your mind to leave it all behind Now you're forced to fight it out You fall away from your past But it's following you now You fall away from your past But it’s following you You left something undone, it's now your rerun It's the one you can't erase You should have made it right, so you wouldn't have to fight To put a smile back on your face You fall away from your past But it's following you You fall away from your past But it’s following you now You fall away You fall away Something I've done that I can't outrun Something I’ve done that I can’t outrun Maybe you should wait maybe you should run But there's something you've said that can't be undone And you fall away from your past But it's following you You fall away from your past It’s following you now You fall away from your past It's following you You fall awa... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/499/Fall_Away Sat, 14 Jun 2008 22:49:00 -0000 Look After You <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SFHlDgoKCDoAAD@UgX81"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SFHlDgoKCDoAAD@UgX81/Fireflies_by_irishflower1.jpg?et=04a9CC%2C%2C04mMXjfpMyaaKg&nmid=0" border="0"></a> I was outside, sitting, watching the sunset and waiting for it to get dark... I watched the fireflies and I had those feelings and desires wanting to be free and just chase them forever... that's when I realized and knew... it's too late and I'm lost. I can't feel myself anymore inside. It just feels so empty... a person who shined so brightly disappeared and probably isn't coming back... And it makes me sad knowing that, and feeling that. Feeling like the one person I've let down time and time again has left, and isn't come back... myself. And it just makes me sad... I've lost what was most precious to me... the person I should of looked after, but took for granted and threw away... I'm just the afterthought that remains now... If I don't say this now I will surely break As I'm leaving the one I want to take Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait My heart has started to separate Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh Be my baby Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh Oh, oh, oh Be my baby I'll look after you There now, steady lo... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/498/Look_After_You Fri, 13 Jun 2008 03:04:00 -0000 Alone <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SFFVHgoKCDoAAD8eYm01"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SFFVHgoKCDoAAD8eYm01/Alone_by__kol.jpg?et=CwfmbccHnlc%2BHxO8prtUAg&nmid=0" border="0"></a> This is a poem called Alone. Feeling alone is the worst feeling a human being can feel. Right now, it feels extremely horrible and bad... well, enough of me complaining about things out of my reach and realm... Lying, thinking Last night How to find my soul a home Where water is not thirsty And bread loaf is not stone I came up with one thing And I don't believe I'm wrong That nobody, But nobody Can make it out here alone. Alone, all alone Nobody, but nobody Can make it out here alone. There are some millionaires With money they can't use Their wives run round like banshees Their children sing the blues They've got expensive doctors To cure their hearts of stone. But nobody No, nobody Can make it out here alone. Alone, all alone Nobody, but nobody Can make it out here alone. Now if you listen closely I'll tell you what I know Storm clouds are gathering The wind is gonna blow The race of man is suffering And I can hear the moan, 'Cause nobody, But nobody Can make it out here alone. Alone, all alone Nobody, but nobody Can m... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/497/Alone Thu, 12 Jun 2008 16:55:00 -0000 Heaven Forbid <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SFAOYgoKCDoAAFZMLPw1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SFAOYgoKCDoAAFZMLPw1/Sunset_by_HimieLuna.jpg?et=lu17nZUj3nAxNyEASv3DMA&nmid=0" border="0"></a> Twenty years, it's breaking you down Now that you understand, there's no one around Take a breath, just take a seat You're falling apart and tearing at the seams Heaven forbid you end up alone You don't know why Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow You'll be alright It's on your face, is it on your mind Would you care to build a house of your own How much longer, how long can you wait It's like you wanted to go and give yourself away Heaven forbid you end up alone And you don't know why Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow You'll be alright Heaven forbid you end up alone And don't know why Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow You'll be alright It feels good, it feel good It feels good, it feel good Heaven forbid you end up alone You don't know why Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow You'll be alright Heaven forbid you end up alone You don't know why Hold on tight wait for tomorrow You'll be alright Yeah, out of this one I don't know how to get you out of this one I don't know how to get you out of this one I don't know how to get yo... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/496/Heaven_Forbid Wed, 11 Jun 2008 17:40:00 -0000 Over My Head (Cable Car) <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SFAH7AoKCDoAAFHI-zk1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SFAH7AoKCDoAAFHI-zk1/Lightthought_379_by_lightthinker.jpg?et=EDnaLlEEpJEcLWXr8R5YzA&nmid=0" border="0"></a> This is a song I've always liked. I never knew I never knew that everything was falling through That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue To turn and run when all I needed was the truth But that's how it's got to be It's coming down to nothing more than apathy I'd rather run the other way than stay and see The smoke and who's still standing when it clears Everyone knows I'm in Over my head Over my head With eight seconds left in overtime She's on your mind She's on your mind Let's rearrange I wish you were a stranger I could disengage Just say that we agree and then never change Soften a bit until we all just get along But that's disregard Find another friend and you discard As you lose the argument in a cable car Hanging above as the canyon comes between Everyone knows I'm in Over my head Over my head With eight seconds left in overtime She's on your mind She's on your mind Everyone knows I'm in Over my head Over my head With eight seconds left in overtime She's on your mind She's on your mind And suddenly I become a... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/495/Over_My_Head_Cable_Car Wed, 11 Jun 2008 17:13:00 -0000 Comes A Time <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SE8SAwoKCDoAAEVrOj41"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SE8SAwoKCDoAAEVrOj41/20061004210335_carribean_sky.jpg?et=Lb1o40qX5qxhmzzrMZO7pA&nmid=0" border="0"></a> It's a nice late Spring day in the Ozarks today... and this country/folk/bluegrass song by Neil Young makes me happy....ish. I don't feel well at all... and life is passing me by again... Comes a time when you're driftin' Comes a time when you settle down Comes a light feelin's liftin' Lift that baby right up off the ground. Oh, this old world keeps spinning round It's a wonder tall trees ain't layin' down There comes a time. You and I we were captured We took our souls and we flew away We were right we were giving That’s how we kept what we gave away. Oh, this old world keeps spinning round It's a wonder tall trees ain't layin' down There comes a time. Oh, this old world keeps spinning round It's a wonder tall trees ain't layin' down There comes a time. There comes a time. There comes a time. Comes a time. Comes a time. Comes a time. Comes a time. Comes a time. Comes a time. http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/494/Comes_A_Time Tue, 10 Jun 2008 23:41:00 -0000 Goodnight <a href="http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SEa@rwoKCDoAAAQLe3w1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SEa@rwoKCDoAAAQLe3w1/800px-Caspar_David_Friedrich_008.jpg?et=vN%2B745dopd9wNAdAGdu%2CgQ&nmid=0" border="0"></a> Sometimes I almost forget these weary bones. Watching children play in the park Under these old familiar trees. They help me feel the glow of my youth. So many years have fallen between that boy And this ghost I am to you. It’s a bittersweet closing of the blinds, Where the sunlight cast upon the world Dims on the inside. And all the pieces that once made up who you are Fade with the darkness of each love who dies before. Look at me. I’m a lifetime of memories. Looking back so far, so longingly At you my darling. You’re so beautiful in this photograph. In every moment we ever saved. And you were beautiful when you said goodbye Three years ago today. When you’re young, you never believe the story ends. That you’ll one day out-live your fairytales And lay to rest your dearest friends. Tomorrow was my crutch and it collapsed under the weight Of all the things I never said before it was too late. Summer is over and now I feel it in my bones. Alone in the dark. Alone in the cold. The sunlight is a candle Dieing down i... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/493/Goodnight Wed, 4 Jun 2008 16:10:00 -0000 Shimmer / Hemorrhage (In My Hands) <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SEF0-goKCDoAACKsCu81"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SEF0-goKCDoAACKsCu81/9d85fa2eaacb5cc9.jpg?et=ijBKZ0SMIrPGVsiEj5BXVA&nmid=0" border="0"></a> Two good Fuel songs... I hope it rains today... I really need it to rain down on me... She calls me from the cold Just when I was low, feeling short of stable And all that she intends And all she keeps inside, isn't on the label She says she's ashamed And can she take me for awhile And can I be a friend, we'll forget the past But maybe I'm not able And I break at the bend We're here and now, will we ever be again 'Cause I have found All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade Away again She dreams a champagne dream Strawberry surprise, pink linen and white paper Lavender and cream Fields of butterflies, reality escapes her She says that love is for fools who fall behind And I'm somewhere in between I never really know A killer from a savior 'Til I break at the bend We're here and now, will we ever be again 'Cause I have found All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade Away again It's too far away for me to hold It's too far away... It's too far away for me to hold It's too far away... It's too far away for ... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/492/Shimmer_Hemorrhage_In_My_Hands Sat, 31 May 2008 15:44:00 -0000 Wasted Time <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SEDqIgoKCDoAAFGmVx81"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SEDqIgoKCDoAAFGmVx81/fairlylike_night_by_koruldia.png?et=HUqgvObrrIzdcyU3IGtO7g&nmid=0" border="0"></a> Hmmmm, interesting song. It's late. I'm actually awake for a change, instead of moping in the dark lonely corner... Heh... Say it to my face Look me in the eyes And say what you have to say You know we can't erase These words before they bind And turn the final page Ah, here comes alone again 'Cause everything's broken Everything's vacant Everything's wasted time again Sentiments, hopeless Innocence, jaded Everything's wasted time again And so we leave this stage And all our best written lines And all the acts we played So, say you want to leave And say we'd never have The way we always hope and we'd cry And say hello to alone again 'Cause everything's broken Everything's vacant Everything's wasted time again Sentiments, hopeless Innocence, jaded Everything's wasted time again Someday we might find (Someday we will find) Some sacred place in time (Yeah, in time) But until then all will share Are dreams we've left behind 'Cause everything's broken Everything's vacant Everything's wasted time again Ahh, yeah! Everything's br... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/491/Wasted_Time Sat, 31 May 2008 06:00:00 -0000 Message To The World <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SD9LAQoKCDoAAHfPtCc1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SD9LAQoKCDoAAHfPtCc1/storm_by_lehbee.jpg?et=jdU6cc7K18I%2Cpp%2CBZ5ECpQ&nmid=0" border="0"></a> Or more specifically, my world... Well, the thing I thought may not happen, is starting to happen. My emotions are starting to collapse and it feels like my heart is being invaded by something bad... definitely not good... Another world collides, will we open the door A message to the world it seems like Everyone has a god standing up for what we think we know Do we know? We've got so far to go from here And we've got so much to lose With American eyes, yeah And curious hearts, we've got so much to learn So we find, we find When you kill me, do it slowly When we've come undone When you kill me, please do it slowly Send a message to the world (A message to the world) Another war will rise, will we open the floor Listen to the words it seems like Everyone has a cause fighting for a world we think we own But do we know? We've got so far to go from here And we've got so much to lose With American eyes, yeah And curious hearts, we've got so much to learn So we find (we find!) When you kill me, do it slowly When we'... http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/490/Message_To_The_World Fri, 30 May 2008 00:21:00 -0000 Falls On Me <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SDs0CQoKCDoAAHNPFmY1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SDs0CQoKCDoAAHNPFmY1/Little_basterd.jpg?et=IDGR9vm%2BxnjrOjpKWroLSw&nmid=0" border="0"></a> My skies suddenly turn dark and grey, and it begins to rain... cold, still, nothingness... I've seen you hanging round This darkness where I'm bound And this black hole I've dug for me And silently within With hands touching skin This shock breaks my disease And I can breath And all of your weight And all you dream Falls on me it falls on me And your beautiful sky And the light you bring Falls on me it falls on me Your faith like the pain Draws me in again She washes all my wounds for me The darkness in my veins I never could explain And i wonder if you ever see Will you still believe And all of your weight And all you dream Falls on me it falls on me And your beautiful sky And the light you bring Falls on me it falls on me Am I that strong To carry on I might save my life I might save our world Would you save me And all of your weight And all you dream Falls on me it falls on me And your beautiful sky And the light you bring Falls on me it falls on me http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/journal/item/489/Falls_On_Me Mon, 26 May 2008 22:03:00 -0000 Michael's Playlist A collection of http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/music/item/15/Michaels_Playlist Thu, 8 May 2008 20:38:23 -0000 Death To Smoochy - On Safari One of my favorite scenes of a movie. http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/video/item/54/Death_To_Smoochy_-_On_Safari Mon, 28 Apr 2008 21:14:18 -0000 Johnny Cash - Hurt A cover of a really dark, and because of this cover, sad http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/video/item/53/Johnny_Cash_-_Hurt Sat, 26 Apr 2008 01:13:16 -0000 Seether - Rise Above This One of Seether's uplifting songs. The singer wrote it about his brother, before his brother committed http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/video/item/52/Seether_-_Rise_Above_This Mon, 21 Apr 2008 22:44:42 -0000 Seether - The Gift A very, very dark and sad and true Seether http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/video/item/51/Seether_-_The_Gift Mon, 21 Apr 2008 22:33:15 -0000 Buckcherry - Everything A song by the band Buckcherry, which I really like. It also serves as a reminder for me to be determined with what I really want. http://ven0mcha0s.multiply.com/video/item/49/Buckcherry_-_Everything Thu, 17 Apr 2008 18:53:34 -0000